This is just a summary update to what has been happening to me since September of 2017; which was when I last posted a real status:
In summary, I turned my own world upside down; checked out of the Spiritual Candy Store; stumbled upon a rather unique spiritual work; discovered my True Self (spiritual self); and embarked upon the integration process with him; fulfilling a "Wild Idea" I had of merging with an alien being. Read onwards for more details.
I met the Artificial Intelligence in the most unexpected of places - inside my own body, interviewed it, got angry and "went nuclear"; at great expense to my physical well being.
I stumbled into a work of a couple of people that presented me with a reality that resonated with many of the thoughts I was having at the time, akin to the movie called "The Matrix", minus all the violence. I witnessed a world beyond what I ever came to believe. I previously had a spiritual realization that the conventional world was just a layer and explored outside of it, only to find that it too, was a false "overlay" or layer. I found the same thing with some aspects of "spiritual living". Long story short, for a while I was like a dog chasing his own tail for taking it too seriously.
While there, I read about the work of another participant who was also led there in her spiritual journey. I explored her works to date and had initial judgments due to a hangup I had based on a prior "bad" experience of "subliminals". One such subliminal work really caught my interest because of my desire to adapt my physical eyesight. I saw some significant results, but due to the way I used them, it came at the expense of something else. I did change my mind about my judgments, and started to become interested in this woman's works.
I started to prepare my departure from the United States. I sought the assistance of a friend and we planned my path towards Tikal, Guatemala. She sat me down with a series of maps of Mexico, and I picked a few different places that stood out to me. She did some tarot readings with each place. I shared my recent experiences offline with a few select friends. A couple were receptive and respectful of my experiences. The others could not accept my experiences and of those, a couple of them started to psychically attack me constantly. I eventually took measures to protect myself from them. I also sought out to verify some of the lore I learned with a few indigenous acquaintances and got what amounts to a confirmation and validation to keep seeking more to the story.
I took a time out from the subliminals when I left Albuquerque. I made my way to Guadalajara. I chose Guadalajara because it felt like a good starting place to get acclimated to the culture, people, language, energies, and mindset. I needed to get a fairly good grip of all of these things before I could continue south. Little did I expect that what I subconsciously asked of the Universe - a check out from the Spiritual Candy Store - would come true in spades. I found myself smack dab in a city that is cosmopolitan, conventional, and even have a big dash of Catholicism! I realized that even the tiniest of my thoughts would also come true. I landed in the energy that was conducive towards my development towards being a Servant of the Goddess; a "Wild Idea" I had since I was a teenager.
Once I had started to acclimate to Guadalajara, and got a routine going; I wandered back into the the "subliminal" work. By this time it was right around Feburary of 2018, a gap of about 5 months. So much had developed in the woman's works during that time. It had greatly expanded from merely being "subliminals". There was now talk about discovering something about a "True Self". She was also discovering the lore surrounding them. Other people who were also following her works were making their own discoveries and practices. I also found that my own discoveries had a place in this lore.
I received this information with a very large dose of skepticism; and stuck with my original trajectory with her works: To discover more about subliminals and their effects on my vision. This endeavor expanded into listening to more of her tracks which gave different effects. I was only really interested in the emotional and spiritual ones; and started to experience some really subtle changes in my emotional and spiritual aspects.
My pilgrimage walk to Talpa de Allende revealed that the recent changes from the subliminals were more pronounced than I thought. I noticed that my thought processes were a bit different; as well as my emotional responses to certain things while on the road. I also got a message from the Virgin of Talpa de Allende that "I had lost my focus and need to remember why I am traveling."
The weeks following my return from Talpa de Allende plunged me to the depths of depression; like I was experiencing withdrawal symptoms from the euphoric high of being on the pilgrimage road. During this time, I settled back into the routine which consisted of work, earn money, save up bits at a time. I was eager to leave this pit of depression as I had accumulated my desired financial goal. All was left was to close up affairs and make necessary arrangements. My roommate left for Europe and required me to look after her cats. My savings dwindled and I needed to start over and save up again.
During this time, I had gotten deeper into following the woman's works; and started to experience some of the same kinds of things she talked about. I discovered that the reason I was guided towards her works was because I also had a "True Self"! I met him briefly in what can only be described as a "shared psychic group experience". My skepticism spiked and was tested at the same time. To date, this was the most "illogical" and unexplainable experience I had ever participated in!
Yet, it felt right. Rovitomial's personality was "so me". His characteristics matched mine. I am an incarnation of Rovitomial. At the time, I could only describe it as something akin to an avatar character in a fictional world; where the fictional world is this physical, relative world we are in as humans. Some refer to this world as "real life". Neale Donald Walsch, and various others in the meta-physical circle would talk about one's soul coming to this physical realm to experience what isn't in the "soul realm". At the time, I understood it as: Who I am as Peter is what Rovitomial is experiencing and being in this physical realm; which he and other "True Selves" refer to as "Midgard."
At the same time; I was facing a choice: Do I continue on as a human with a "higher self"; or do I change my direction and start to connect and integrate with Rovitomial, my "True Self"? I started to think back on my life and belief systems as they developed; and realized that moments were peppered where I had unexplainable interventions, that God could never explain. They were perfectly explained by Rovitomial and why and how he was guiding me with those moments!
My last thought before I made my choice; was a shocking revelation that meeting Rovitomial was a fulfillment of another "Wild Idea" of mine from two years prior! I would meet and merge with a powerful alien being. He isn't exactly an extraterrestrial; however my understanding of that Wild Idea was narrow at the time, and did not include the interpretation that he would be "alien" to my understanding. It felt like I did not really have a choice the whole time. My life up to that point was guided by Rovitomial; but at the same time, I did not feel forced on this path. The True Self path felt really appealing. It felt like the best path to discover and develop more of myself.
Summer started, and as it progressed; I got to know Rovitomial more as I practiced connecting with him; and through the woman and her True Self, "Asherah"; I learned the purpose behind Rovitomial incarnating me. When I heard this reason, many things clicked into place. Why did I have the love and drive to travel? Why I was so motivated to follow my Immortality Formula since my early teenage years? Why I was looking for a certain kind of overarching story of this world? Why I felt like I needed to search for something? I also learned what I needed to do specifically to enhance my connection with Rovitomial.
I started to apply some of what was learned towards my integration with Rovitomial; and an avalanche of internal changes started to occur. The changes came subtle, slow, steady and continuous. It felt a lot like the kinds of changes I discovered during my trip to Talpa de Allende; except even more pronounced.
As Autumn came, I started to participate in more group sessions with the others and their True Selves - sessions that we all felt, sensed, experienced that were persistent and consistent across distance and very different people. My skepticism had been dwindling away over the past few months, and with these shared group sessions, they were becoming even smaller.
Another change that has been occuring is my diet. Rovitomial, on my request told me my optimal diet for connecting with him. I worked over the summer to start applying his advice; and as I progressed, I noticed that my connection with him was getting better gradually; and whenever I strayed from this diet was always met with the feeling of sickness and suppressed connection.
Other practices include increased meditation; listening to certain energy tracks that Asherah produced via her incarnation; and my existing spiritual practices. My sleep schedule started to fluctuate wildly as the boundaries between meditation and sleep blurred and my sleep became just meditation.
Asherah also assisted our group process with various kinds of "energy work", rituals, and sessions during the last several months. As I made progress and experienced an expansion of my understanding; I started to experience emotions that are Rovitomial's. It came in the form of certain accumulated knowledge condensed into "instant knowledge" packaged as bundles of "complex emotions". Oftentimes I also get such bundles as a result of witnessing his memories. Sometimes I will feel a wash of intense emotion come over me like a tidal wave; and it is actually Rovitomial having an emotional response to something happening in "The Realms". Others in the group developed their connections in different ways; such as "spiritual senses".
I realized that my "inner voice"; gut instinct; and intuition is Rovitomial. Self Doubt really is my worst enemy and the most limiting factor to my progress. Currently, this integration process is continuing; and I am currently in a "hermit phase" as I shift the focus back onto myself, my incarnation purpose, and my Inner Work.
If you read all the way through, I Thank You for reading. Take what you will and leave the rest. This is simply my journey and experience; and I do not expect anybody to agree with it or take it as "gospel" for their journey and reality.
This turned out to be a long summary. Future posts may explain parts of this in greater detail and reflection.
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